I’m always at the wrong time and place.
Either he’s taken or not interested. And even if he is or isn’t, I have no way of telling. I can’t tell. I like everyone equally. All the people I’m close to, I like every one of them. I’m committed to everyone and at the same time committed to no one. I’m hopeless and fickle with anything that involves feelings.
But it’s strange. This time, I unexpectedly found someone by making the first move in communication.
We’re distances away but I found him. And this time I don’t want to let go.
I searched and searched deeper. I found something there. We felt the same.
I’m interested in him and he’s interested in me. It may just be a silly little infatuation between the both of us, between his loneliness and mines. As much as I tried to deny any interest he has in me, I couldn’t. We could just be good friends. I always restrained myself but continued loving and caring always. But this time it’s pretty straight-forward and blunt without words.
It’s not a hypothesis. It’s not a theory. I’m his crush, and he’s my crush.
We’re attracted to each other. We enjoy each other’s presence even when we’re not physically next to each other.
But why should I keep pursuing when I know it will go nowhere? Why do I continue pursuing? And why do you continue to smother me with your flowery language and little antics? Why do I do the same? I hold myself back every time I want to respond to your playfulness with mines. I restrain myself when I want to best your teases with greater ones. But when it reaches a taboo spot, I hold back. We know that you’re not single, and we know that I am.
It kills me. I’m stubborn, and I don’t want to let go. You’re stubborn, and you don’t want to let go of what you have either.
I didn’t see this coming. I won’t know what will happen in the future. Luck was never on my side. I don’t deserve any either.
‘Fate’ will take its course. The supernatural forces behind unnatural occurrences will have its way.
… . .
Even if I can’t have you and you can’t have me, we can still enjoy each other’s company.
Keep in touch. I want to see you again.